Sometimes she pushes me, and I don’t mind it, actually, usually I want her to. Right from the beginning, she made it clear to me that she has very high expectations for me (I’m a medical student, that’s a large part of why, she also knew me from groups before I saw her/was on the treatment team with exT), and I don’t mind that. But usually she wouldn’t keep going when she knew I was that uncomfortable. Perhaps she didn’t realize the extent of my discomfort. Perhaps she thought that I needed to be pushed anyway. I don’t know, but I know that I had an awful day today because of it. I’m a little drunk, now, because I couldn’t decide between studying and drinking, so I decided to do both at once because if I’m self-destructing, why not go all the way, right...? I’m gonna email her again soon, even though I probably shouldn’t. She definitely is not going to be happy with this behavior, but I don’t even freaking care at this point.