My Monday was not good. I did something I should not have done. Now I am finding myself going deeper into depression and regretting SH. It is something that happens from time to time with me.

It was like a itch I could not scratch, it was not good. Now I am beating myself up over it and I think it is bringing me down.

I have not been sleeping well and during the day have no energy, no motivation.

I am sick of this BP stuff, my attitude right now is horrible.I want nothing to do with meds, docs, therapist. let me live without them all as I see no point at this time for them.
I just want to be stable