Not long ago I posted here about the inpatient rehab program to quit smoking that's run by the Mayo clinic. Well, I got bad news this morning. My insurance won't cover it.

Now I'm feeling hopeless and sad.

I've tried to quit using medication, the patch, the gum, cold turkey, tappering to cold turkey, you name it. I've tried, I think, roughly 15 times so far and my record is five days wihout smoking. Each time ends the same way, I become so distressed, so absolutely upset and overwhelmed that I start up again.

I need help. That's all there is to it. I've quit other things but this one I can't do on my own. And to know help is out there but I can't take advantage of it is maddening.

I'm just very upset right now. I don't feel like I'm ever going to beat this thing.

Cyran0