I normally get super manic around the holidays. It starts in October and goes on for several months. I barely sleep, always up doing stuff and making plans, pacing around the house all night listening to Christmas music, am euphoric, and going nuts spending money and cooking and all kinds of holiday stuff. This past Thanksgiving was the first time I didn't feel like that. I actually felt depressed and not excited about the holiday at all. I stayed home and did nothing. I was invited out but I felt dead. My mood seems to have improved a lot over the past 2 weeks, but I'm not manic like I usually am. Maybe it's the meds, I'm not really sure. It was just shocking because never in my 24 years had I had a holiday where I wasn't revved up and excited. I mean, even when things were bad growing up being homeless and other struggles, I still got super excited about the holidays.