P.S. I just re-read my statement about "please help" and inclusion, and I am wondering whether that shift could help the awkward sit with doc tomorrow. I know he won't approve of my delaying the op = more paperwork for them, yet friends completely understand why it would destroy my mental health to be housebound at this point in my life. In the health system we are just units to be fixed... or harmed... not multi-dimensional human beings.