I hope the nutritionist helps you. I know that is a hard step. I lucked out and found a place where the owner (recovered from anorexia) had only hired other nutritionists who had struggled with various EDs. It was pretty much a 2-for-1, nutrition and counseling too, and they were sliding scale. She moved the business out of practical driving range, and it makes sense, the place was tiny and they had no shortage of clients. I didn't have health insurance, but I paid sliding scale, some weeks not at all (in grad school at the time). By the end of it though, I'd pretty much done away with "bad" and "good" foods lists and ate foods I liked that had previously been on the "bad" list such as cake, ice cream, full fat cheese, etc. Of course, moderation is alway the key. And I do have some foods I do not eat, but that is because I have never liked the way they taste - goat milk, goat cheese, beets. I eat the normal cheese because that fat-free cheese is gross, other than mozzarella or cottage cheese. It was hard though. Especially keeping a food diary and being honest with what you wrote down, not lying to make the dietician think you are eating more calories than you actually are, etc. I had to give her my scale (they returned it when I was done seeing them). I always could have bought another scale, but it would have undone all the progress I could make, weigh backwards, etc. It was hard giving up that control I hope you will end up with a good experience too. I have to say I love that foods no longer have "good" and "bad" labels for me, though I still unfortunately do remember the number of calories in lots of foods, haven't forgotten much of that.