I think I spoke too soon. I'm feeling depressed again. I don't know why the depression is on and off, but I'm definitely feeling it right now. Or maybe I've been depressed the whole time and did a good job at finding distractions. But now distractions don't work. I have no interest in doing anything. So now I'm staring at my phone as I type this, and I will resume to staring at the blank wall once this is posted. Though I might just go into a long depressive slumber and wake up 50,000 hours later

I want to be like a bear. I want to never wake up until winter ends.

No suicidal thoughts like the other day, but still...

At least I have a pdoc appt tomorrow. Perfect timing?