It has been a bad last part of this day. My daughter called me “dumbass”. My so called “step son” called me “gay”. I do not know. Apparently I handled the relationships I have (or had?) with them. I think in a Mecican culture, you have to come acvross more like a “man”, at least what they woukd think a man should be. It has not helped with me coming across helpless for a very long time now. I should not let this bother me much at all. But it does.

I have been very depressed for some time now. I was starting to feel better yesterday. Now I feel depressed again. What has been happening has not helped me. I have been shirking my respinsabilities. Lets see what tomorrow brings.