I have been suffering from low-grade depression for about the last 5 years and I've slipped into a deep depression recently. Or I just admitted it to myself. I've had a series of setbacks and losses in the last few years - lost my job, my neice and father died, brother and I have become estranged and now I am estranged from my best friend.

I haven't worked in 3 years and feel like a total looser because of it. Each day that goes by brings me further into debt. I have dug this hole for myself and I have no idea how to get out of it. I have no medical insurance and have had to stop taking the medication I was on - Effexor. Effexor seemed to help me function somewhat, but masked the problem so I was able to ignore it.

My life has become worthless and it's my own damned fault. I just need a place where I can be honest and say "everything sucks" and not be judged for it. I feel so sad and so hopeless. Even though I have experienced many periods of depression before and they always go away, with or without treatment - getting through this one is so hard. Especially since I've only just admitted to myself how bad it really is.