My first memories I can "prove" is being very young and helping my mum bake a cake. She let me mix poppy seed filling in a bowl. :-)

But I've had a special vision... I don't know if it's a memory or what... But I felt it strongly with all my senses at the time when we were discussing my early childhood with T. At night, I had a vision of being in total darkness, and wanting to cry but no sound came out of my mouth. I vawed my hands in front of me, as if I wanted to hold someone but there was no one there, I was completely ALONE. I had this experience several months ago.

I think it may have been some strange recollection of my birth. I was born with umbilical cord around my neck and with my eyelids stuck together so I couldn't open my eyes before a minor surgery. I think this was my first trauma, right when I was born.

Other things were similar to Skeezysk, nothing really traumatic on its own, but many, many small and insignificant ones.