I watched my abusive narcissist mother die in front of me in utter agony after a long fight with lung cancer. Can't really say that I enjoyed her suffering because IDK myself, but I can say that I didn't feel a damn thing about her.

In fact, the only thing I could think while watching her die was can she hurry up and die already so I can go home and play video games.

I only stayed with her because I had no other way to support myself at the time. I was too mentally unstable to find and hold down a job that paid enough to support myself. About the only money I could make was off donating plasma 2x a week every week and selling MMO currency. Neither way is a realistic way to pay the bills while living alone.

If given the choice, I would have told her to go **** herself and let her die alone. Unfortunately, fate wasn't kind enough to give me a choice