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Originally Posted by Anne2.0
I guess I'd find it relevant, in your shoes, to hear what she said when you discussed it with her (or when you discuss it with her, which I think makes sense to do before you make any decision). If her *present* position is that-- though I'm not sure precisely what it means-- that would inform my decisionmaking.
So your behavior or your unwillingness to stop harming yourself may cause her to end therapy even if it is your choice to continue. Is this the issue? Do you want to put off the decision on her or do you want to create a situation where she will be forced to "abandon" you? I'm sure there are a number of scenarios possible, although I understand that going to therapy with the insistence that you won't change is helpful to you. I think you "deserve" therapy under these circumstances, and I hope you can continue going as long as you want to.
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The full context of that quote was I had told her I relapsed last summer. She said, "If you lose more weight, we're going to have to seek different treatment options -- that could mean inpatient." I said I didn't want to go. She said "Well I can't sit here and watch you destroy your body, if you lose enough weight that it's dangerous I don't have a choice, I have to do something."
So it wasn't like giving up on me, I think she was trying to impart how serious she felt the situation was. I don't know if I would consider being forced inpatient as "abandonement" ... that's not something I'm worried about, i have a healthy relationship with her without attachment. In fact I'm not even sure if she is *allowed* to terminate me as she works in my university clinic and they can't turn patients away (except to send to the ER if one is suicidal when they call) so I'm not sure of the rules on that.
Sorry for the ramble, I hope that answered your question