It's really hard for me to put my finger on exactly the issue here.

I'm not someone who normally protests the slaughter of animals, but I do think about the animal I am eating and lately it has been bothering me. Something I've realized is this all started to happen when I was told by my grandma several months ago that one of my youngest cousins has recently switched to vegetarianism and that has been on my mind lately because how come my youngest cousin gets to be a vegetarian when I can't? Preparing meat is a tradition in my family, and my parents are against vegetarianism to the point where I've had to tell my vegetarian friends that if they want to come over for dinner they need to bring their own food. My parents are against me becoming a vegetarian so I always thought I'd make the switch when I move out and can prepare my own food (because it is disrespectful to turn down the meals they prepare for me) but I'm getting really turned off by meat, and I just don't know what's causing it. To be honest, I've thought about making the switch for several years and I just don't know how while my parents are so against vegetarianism.