Work was interminable today. My student decided to sleep in detention all day so I had to sit and stare at my hands for an hour until they decided to send him home. Then I was sent to a classroom where I couldn’t really help so more staring at the clock. Finally at 2 o clock I jetted out of there and picked up my son to take him to get his flu shot. We did that and went home where I ate dinner and waited for RS to pick me up.

I went to an indoor car race with RS and it was actually fun! I thought I’d be bored out of my mind but it wasn’t so bad. It was a little long though, three and a half hours. I definitely wanted to be done with it after about two. But I got to sit and hold my honey’s hand for awhile so it was nice. I also met his dad, his uncle, his cousin, and his friend. I hope I was personable.

So we had THE conversation last night about exclusivity. We both agree that we’re not interested in playing the field and seeing anyone else so he is officially my boyfriend! I’m so happy. This feels so different from my ex; RS actually seems like he cares about me and isn’t going to suddenly stop being sweet two months into the relationship. And I care about him a lot. Plus, I’m stable this time. I’m not getting swept up in hypomania.

I’m having a lot of insecurities, mainly related to my MI because I feel like I can’t really trust him until he sees me at my worst a few times and doesn’t leave me. Which should be coming up shortly with quitting nicotine so we shall see.