Just going by what you said. Regardless if it was good or bad, he broke up with you in November 2017 and you yourself said he was trying to get rid of you for a year. You wanting to reunite isn’t enough. I understand it hurts but after a year you might need to accept a reality and work on moving on. You are driving yourself insane trying to get him back. You can certainly keep trying for more years to come if that makes you happy. But you post because you are in pain and you losing all self respect in the process coming across desperate. But we can’t stop you of course. Good luck with this