As I'm reading the replies and reflecting a bit, I thought of something. In a way, as much as it sucks RIGHT NOW, this is a gift from him.... not that he's a bad person, I 100% believe he is a kind hearted person.

However, right now, I know he is going through a lot.... he has told me several personal reasons why he had to leave, but to give him and me time to step back and work on our own stuff... me and my self worth and such and him and his things, it might be a good thing. I mean, MAYBE we are meant to be friends or something but if so, then we will fall right back into things like no time has passed, he wont forget me, It will all work out

If we are not, then at that time, I wont care, I may wonder how he is but it wont be some desire within me to reach out. That's why I think he's giving me the option to reach out. 2 years is long but also time flies. It's nearly been 2 years since I even began therapy.

I just gotta try to think about the good we had, and make the best of things, work on myself and my future and see how I feel in two years time. Wether or not he responds if I reach out, will be a reflection of how he feels then too. Maybe he wont be ready, maybe he will. Only time will tell.

I never thought I'd be able to breathe one day without my dog.... and it's been 14 months now.