I shouldn't have gotten out of bed today; I am currently trapped in the hospital, Cardiovascular ICU to be exact. I fainted while shopping with M. Apparently while were discussing shoes my blood pressure bottomed out and I fainted cutting my head on a display which required five stitches. I also didn't wake up until I was in the ambulance and M was trying to shove an IV in my arm; which he is surprisingly good at. I also thought he had a twin in the ambulance the double vision had returned. I have very minor double vision as I post this. My heart rate is 160 and my blood pressure is 50/60 it was a lot lower in the ambulance. My heart rate was 200 when the ambulance got there.

I am beyond grateful I decided to hang out with M over the girls. I just keep thinking what if this happened while we were mini golfing. I would have traumatized my nieces. They wouldn't have known what to do besides panic.

My Cardiologist is also on call this weekend so at least I have my doctor that knows what the issue is. He also looks really good in scrubs; so at least I have an enjoyable view. He is still unsure what the heck is wrong with me; one minute it looks like Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia and the next minute it looks like Postural Orthstatic Sinus Tachycardia so I am getting a tilt table test tomorrow; once they get my blood pressure back to normal range; which in my case is traditional high. He doesn't think it has to do with the upped beta blocker it shouldn't have caused my blood pressure to drop out. Depending on what the tilt table says I might also getting an Electrophysiology Study either tomorrow or Monday to see if it was indeed a medication problem; it will also be able to tell them what medications I react the best with.

What grinds my gears was I was fine before I saw a Cardiologist my heart rate was high but the only time I noticed it was at a doctor's office and I had the rare issue of palpitations now it's sending me to the hospital; granted I'm pretty sure this visit was long overdue since I'm pretty sure my primary wanted to admit me several times over my heart rate; I'm just stubborn and he knew I would never go for it.

I also have to be put in the stupid ICU because no general floor wants a patient with a heart rate like mine; so now I have a nurse bothering me what feels like every five seconds. At least my nurse is nice. M also refuses to leave my side as does R. I'm debating on whether I call the parents or call Auntie. I mean I feel fine, just nauseous, a headache, fever, and my personal favorite fatigue. I'm also good and annoyed.

M also gets bonus points because he used my standard lie of why I am on Seroquel to the ER doctor depression instead of my Bipolar 2 diagnosis; my Cardiologist doesn't know my crazy diagnosis either. I'm just annoyed with my health here lately what happened to be indestructible and going a year and a half before needing a doctor; now I can't even make it a month. My mental condition is in check; but my heart isn't. I know I should be resting but I'm behind in school work and like hell am I taking an incomplete in all these classes.

I just want normal week where I am fine and don't have to see a doctor; hospital; or test. Is that too much to ask for? I am sick of health drama; and family drama. I feel like a drama magnetic; I swear my life isn't usually like this. I also want out of the stupid hospital, I hate it here.

Hugs to everyone