Having a bad day today and Christmas is definitely to blame. My husband wants to travel to see his mom and I want to see her too but I hate to think of my daughter alone at Christmas--she doesn't want to go so she suggested staying and cooking for her brother--I said that sounds great (I am also worried about leaving him at Christmas) then my husband said--no way! The thing is that the last time he was here there was trouble. I don't want to go into the details but it is not easy dealing with my son--but I still think it is a chance that we should take. H is adamant that he cannot come and is saying I am being unstable and if our son came to the house--he would have to fix the mess. The whole situation has all of us (H, my daughter and me) fighting. I am trying not to talk about my situation on here because I wonder if I should but...

I think a lot of my problem is that I want please others and am very indecisive about these kind of situations. I am going to be going back and forth on this (stay and be with my children or go with H) all week. I change my mind based on what other people tell me instead of knowing what I truly want. The rumination drives me crazy. Though I am leaning towards staying but H is not going to like this and I am not looking forward to telling him...