He called this morning. Finally. Said he'd call Wednesday and today is Friday. Not too bad, I guess, given his track record. I guess I'm a little embarrassed to say, all is forgiven. Yeah, I'm a pushover.

When he called, I had just gone into the basement at work, where there is terrible cell phone reception. I could hear him perfectly, but he really couldn't hear me at all. He kept talking to me, though, "sunny, are you there? I can't hear you. Sunny? Sunny?" Meanwhile I started going down the hall to get outside for better reception. And I kept saying, "hold on, hold on, I'm here, hold on, hold on, hold on, I'm here." I kind of liked saying that to him. Not sure why. I liked that he held on through this, without being able to hear me, and didn't hang up.

Outside his voice was very strong and he sounded good. We talked about 15 minutes. He said he liked what I wrote in the email--that I was taking action. He asked me for my current plans and gave input into what he thinks I should do, if I am able--tomorrow is going to be a tough day. He also reported on what he had been up to and what his current plan is. So we both know what is going on. And I will see him Monday for our session and get to check in then too before somewhat of a big event happening Wednesday, when I'll see him again. Sheeesh, I hope I survive tomorrow. Hearing his voice and "expertness" gave me a lot of strength. Is it OK to just draw strength from someone like that? Hope they don't feel sapped after being tapped into like that. I also like how he acknowledged this is not a black and white situation and there is no one, perfect answer. I have been feeling so torn--if I do X, then this awful thing happens, but if I do Y, then this other thing happens that is also not good. So it was good to have someone acknowledge the reality of that to me.

I need some good luck tomorrow...