I had a great night today. RS came over and fixed my son’s bed and my door I finally have a normal working door again! And my son doesn’t have to sleep on a mattress on the floor. He’s so nice to do all that for me even though we’ve only been dating a month. Then we went to a holiday light show with my SIL and BIL. That was really cool. We go every year.

After my son went to bed and my in laws left RS and I had a couple of hours to just lay in bed and talk. It was really nice. I wanted him to spend the night and he wanted to too but I decided it’s too soon for that. My son always comes into my bed in the middle of the night to sleep with me and he might get freaked out finding RS there. Plus he wets the bed still and sometimes pees in my bed. I don’t want RS to get peed on lol. At my son’s physical in January I’m going to ask for medication for him to help stop the bed wetting. He’s eight years old now so it’s really too old to be doing that and he’s at the age where he’s gonna want to start having sleepovers. I don’t want him to be embarrassed if he goes to a friends house. So maybe in a couple of months I’ll feel comfortable having RS sleep over. It would be amazing to wake up to him. All in good time.

My son did get upset tonight though. He suddenly came out of his room and asked if I still love him. I talked to him about it in his room and he said he was sad that I’m going out with RS so much and leaving him at home. It is a big change; I very rarely went out with my ex. We didn’t spend much time together and when we did it was during the day when he was at school or camp because I was unemployed. So I assured him that of course I love him and he will always be number one in my life. I said sometimes boyfriends and girlfriends like to go out on dates but it doesn’t mean I love him any less. It’s been just the two of us for so long now that adding another person into the mix is bound to be stressful for my son. I just have to show him I love him and that will never change. I was going to go out with RS next weekend to his cousin’s birthday party but now we are going to bring him with us instead of leaving him home. It’s at Dave and busters which is an arcade no he will have a great time. And I’ll still get to go out with RS and my son won’t feel abandoned. Win all around.