Feels like I'm getting depressed now, woke up this morning after quite a bit of sleep, just feels like energy got pulled out of me and empty now. I was on the upside for a few or more months, hindsight it was gradual and like running up a series of stairs. Now I'm walking back down all those stairs I guess. 'what goes up must come down'. Which I always balk at when someone says that if I'm on the 'up side'.

This is the 3rd 'stepdown' in past couple weeks. Can/could literally feel it. First one felt good and was grounding I guess, second one OK, sleep coming back more. Didn't feel 'depressed', felt more level.

Today feels like I crossed the line. I've been getting a lot of exercise and that is insulation. My house is clean, that's insulation.

I'm sleeping a lot more, and progressively more. Which is 7-8 hours now but was way less than that for long time and were some times when I didn't sleep at all or only a few hours. Was up at 3-4am several weeks in a row maybe longer. Hindsight I think sleep hours plummetted in September. I had the hypomanic 'buzz' which is kinda a wonderful feeling. Till it gets uncomfortable and agitating, insight goes away, and things eventually went totally off the rails on the upside.

Guess this is normal to come down gradually. Just hope I didn't really cross the line and about to get worse or stuck in a depression.

So if I keep exercising daily, doing best to not isolate, hygiene things, hopefully can keep it under wraps and not slide more. But I can feel a huge energy shift from yesterday to the downside. This has been happening gradually for about a couple weeks and remember 2 other days were there was a big shift down, but those didn't feel like this.