(Not suicidal.) I cannot do this anymore...I just CAN'T. I do not want to be this, I do not want to feel this, I do not want to keep on in this pathetic existence. I want to scream and rant and tear my hair out. I want someone to help me, I want someone to KNOW me and really understand and help hold me up when I can't stand on my own. This dark creeps up with such stealth and slowly tightens its grip until I can't breathe anymore. I HATE myself, I hate this, and I just don't know how long I can keep going.