I haven't felt this way in a while. Even with depression, usually I hold back tears. Today, the tears keep flowing and flowing. The rapid cycling with mania caught up with me, and I'm feeling the "crash." I don't even know why I feel this way, and I cannot even explain to anyone around me why I feel this way when others ask what is wrong. This is why I locked myself in my room and do not feel like getting up or doing anything.