The ED is bothering me tonight since I did not exercise today. Ugh, why do we tie our self worth to a stupid number on the scale? And it’s never low enough for the stupid ED. I have been hovering around the same weight awhile, wanting to lose more sometimes, but not daring to. Pdoc and H would be in a fit, so that at least keeps me at a weight that is not dangerously low even though if I lived alone, I know I would just give in fully to the ED. I am lucky I that this time around, I don’t restrict, maybe I will say no to dessert some nights, maybe not. But the over exercise is the killer! I already can’t wait to get out tomorrow and run.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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