Thanks to those of you offering support or actual answers to my questions rather than judgement. It's hard enough with this loss and transition being so fresh. I don't need to deal with judgment on here. Please think before posting further

It's not anyone's business what went on with us or what could in the future, but ours

I just was feeling down and confused when I made this thread. Looking for support and answers

I'm really struggling with the big changes in my life and regret. This isn't easy but as with everything life throws at me, I'll get through it. It's fine if people still want to comment here but lets save the judgemental comments for something else. Thanks