Giving an ultimatum is also “not me or how I operate” but my therapy life seems to have taken on a life of its own. I did not end up issuing an ultimatum, but i did feel some relief just talking about it here, and am thankful to PC for their input. I did end up sending my T an email (he’s been clear that he will read emails, just not respond) expressing my frustration with being left alone with the emotional hurricane that started after I left session last week. And, although I did not specifically ask for a reply, I think it was definitely implied that I would like one just to know that he’s there and that I’m not alone in this. That’s all. Not to fix things or to do therapy via email. And although I did not articulate an ultimatum, deep down inside I know that I may be using his lack of response as a reason to skip my upcoming session. So maybe there was an unspoken ultimatum. I know I should go and talk it through, but if I can finally get this emotional rollercoaster to slow down a bit, I’m not sure I want to show up for my session this week and get it going again, especially over the holidays.