I left a violent relationship, have stayed in a women shelter so I do recognize signs. I do want to add, thank you for spreading awareness of DV!!! Its super important!!!
However, this was completely consensual, I was aware of that I was kissing him and the act felt more routine and instinctive for me, like I wasnt sure what it was I was doing, it just felt normal.
Such a horrible experience afterwards, but not during.

I am on medication for anxiety and depression, have been for 2 years or so now. Recently I have been having heart palpitations, I had an ecg done 3 days ago and waiting for my follow up with the doc... maybe this is a sign something is wrong.

I will bring it up with my doc on Wednesday. Thank you for the answers. It was such an odd experience. X