I was trying to understand the rules in a place of feeling down. I get tired of people judging and focusing on if he was right or wrong. That's not what I want feedback on.

It's fine you worry but again two years is a long time. None of us know what may or may not happen then. I'm well aware there's a chance of nothing.

I think people are also forgetting in general this Time of year is hell for me cuz of my dog and now I got this loss as well. Am I supposed to be thrilled?

I feel like I'm losing my dog all over again. I don't have much real life support as I said most people dont know I did therapy.

I feel it's ok to ask for support or real answers to my questions and ask for the judgement comments to end. Sorry if it's out of line to want that

The bottom line is no one here knows me. You don't know how I feel or handle stuff in life etc. I don't mind people having concern but I don't need it. I will do what I feel is right for me in 2 yrs. That's the bottom line