Moments ago my T did just send me an email reply and I now feel physically ill. Like I might throw up. I’m an adult. Why do I feel that way? All he said was we should meet on Wednesday and talk about the dynamic between us. Although I technically did not give an ultimatum I now worry that I did manipulate him into responding with my sob story of how he left me alone with my intense emotions, blah, blah, blah, and I feel bad about that.[/QUOTE]

I would feel like that because I would have fallen into an emotional flashback- so the strong feeling is a flash back to when it was an issue to annoy or upset or enter into conflict etc etc, not an adult reaction to an email from my t.

Not saying this is what you've done- only what I would perceive I'd done from his response in the context of my history.