I've been really negative lately. My affect is so flat. I was working at a Daycare, remodeling the bathroom: removing the 2 layers of wallpaper, washing the walls,applied 3 coats of koint compound to smooth the walls out, prime, and check if a ineeded to smooth the walls out more, then painted the 3 walls, and waited the next day to paint the dark blue brick wall that acts as an accent.

The lady was very friendly, she told me she use to babysit my boss's son. My response was so cold, all I said, was, "yeah I know" but I didn't even smile when I said it. I just have no enthusiasm or interest. This flat affect or anhedonia is really starting to show as the years pass. Nothing excites me except for a few hours each weekend where I drink beer and write, and that's doesn't make me happy, it just makes life more interesting.