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Originally Posted by Wild at heart
I told my T some stuff the last two weeks, and afterwards felt that my therapy would be over (that she would reject me). But when I went back it was as if I'd told something quite normal. What a relief to be accepted. I think she is oblivious to this. I don't think I need to tell her. Anyway if she's going to approach each session 'without memory', does not sharing it matter?
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I do experience the acceptance in therapy as a kind of haven from the meanness of the world, as I work in the adversarial system of the law where it is somebody's job to tear me apart.
Then there's communicating any experience or feedback in therapy, which I sometimes do and sometimes don't. As time has gone on, I'm more generous with the things that particularly helped me, and don't gripe as much about the other stuff. But I used to think T was oblivious to some of my experiences about therapy and my style of avoiding things, until I read my session notes which were quite vague yet quite clear to me that he understood it and noticed it very well. I think that all my T's have been, say, understated in their reactions. They neither make a big deal of the positive or negative things in the course of therapy.