Thanks. Lately, I seem to be at an all time low. Maybe it's the season. I've had a lot of stress. That's interesting about the gabapentin. I'm taking it for fibro, but I doubt it is doing a thing. Might try not taking it and see if I notice any difference with the fibro. I know Wellbutrin does a number on the vocabulary I have on hand, causing me to forget words, use not exactly the word I mean, or have to describe the object instead, which makes me talk in crazy sounding sentences.
On the one hand, yes, I am grateful not to be suicidal or self-harming or doing stupid stuff like driving my car as fast as possible (though being a Subaru Forester, it's not exactly the model racecar) or spending thousands of dollars we don't have on useless junk I won't ever use.
I don't know, it's weird. I suppose BP, all my struggles with mental illness have made me into who I am today. Sometimes, it has given me knowledge & insight I never would have had, but other times, I'm sick of it and would rather be the person I was on track to be before anorexia and bipolar and panic disorder. So frustrating.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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