When your parents expressed to you that they would have been better off if they did not have children or that you were a disappointment what they are really saying is they were NOT qualified to have children and raise them in a safe home and love them unconditionally and be supportive. Unfortunately, people have children who should not have children because they are SELFISH and ignorant. It's not your fault that you had dysfunctional parents, never meant you did not deserve to be loved and appreciated.