Hang in there. ♡

I think your T will try to be more generous given the break. She will likely try to give you something to hold onto so you can internalize her presence at least in part, so there can be some containment while she's gone.

I agree with others to not focus on fixing parts. They will integrate, so try to accept them and step back and observe yourself 'growing up' alongside T. Setting limits is caring-it will help you achieve your potential one day.

I feel jealous because my T wasnt that giving, but ideally, this is how it would work in this this type of therapy.