I was abused in all ways growing up, and through my life, by my parents, other family, and others. I understand how you are feeling. When my parents passed, I had very little emotion. They have been gone several years now, and I still feel nothing. I don't believe my lack of feeling will change. When a person is hurt, and hurt several times, the trust is gone, and at some point, I think about the only feeling for me that I have left for these people is anger. So I just don't let my self get pulled in by others. My older Sis will call crying sometimes, and I just listen to her, and let her get what ever out, even when I feel nothing.