I'm finally on the receiving end of comments and attitude from people at work who seem to think that because I "don't look ill" that I must be faking it. It's absolutely heartbreaking.

I am a long time sufferer of crohns disease that has steadily got worse each year. At the moment I'm in chronic pain, get constant urine infections and have taken many sick days the last few months. On top of this, because I've received some counselling for the breakdown I had in October and have started some new antidepressants, I've been able to paint the face on that I'm dealing with things when really it's just the same as before.

I often have to go to the bathroom either because of my bowels or just to take a few deep breaths dealing with people at my job. Now I'm in trouble for keep leaving my desk all the time. This hasade me feel so paranoid and I'm back to feeling now like I did before. Do they want to see me crying in a heap on the floor before they'll accept I'm having problems?? I'm scared for my job at the moment and between that and trying to make Christmas special for my daughter I don't feel like I've got anything left to give.