I have two post ideas so I'll just put them in one. Feel free to respond to just one.

I was having a stressful day and wanted to get out of the house so I went to a group I used to go to a year or so ago. Before I said anything one of the counselors said I looked unwell and another said he could tell I was off my meds. We discussed it further and decided I was paranoid and hallucinating, but not unsafe, manic, or depressed. The plan was to take my meds to a difference pharmacy, ask them if it's really Clozaril and try to move up my pdoc appointment, and go back to the group more frequently. But then after I asked myself if I trust the counselors or the "pharmacists" to be honest and I really don't, but what if they're right and I'm just being paranoid? How am I supposed to sort this out? Honestly I'd go to the ER to get another haldol shot before I take Clozaril from that pharmacy, but idk if you can just show up at the ER and say "hey, can I get some sort of PRN for hallucinations and go home? Preferably a shot so I don't leave, panic, and purge any pills?" Is that a thing you can do without being admitted?
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Also, I made a list of all the meds I've been on and their effect on me. I have responded well to a few antipsychotics but never had symptoms go away from mood stabilizers. Anyone else like this? It just seems kinda weird that bipolar is a "mood disorder" that in my case doesn't respond to mood stabilizers.