Going to my therapist today (it has been a long time--my last appointment was October 1st). I do need to go. I have been having a lot of paranoia since my family started fighting last week about what to do about our son during the holidays. We have made up. I have figured out what to do but the whole incident makes me have doubts about my husband. I need both therapy and designated worry times in a safe place. Sometimes my husband hates when I worry about our son. If I say my worries out loud, he will say I shouldn't see our son because I am not capable of helping him. I have to be diligent about taking medications in order to keep my cool with our son but I can't stop helping him because as far as I can tell--I am the only one helping him. We didn't talk on the phone or speak yesterday--now I am worried about him.