OP-Simply removed 4 or 5 organs and a few lymph nodes
Not having chemo/radiotherapy

I believe everyone on this thread/forum understands the overwhelming/almost uncontrollable desire to reach out to a trusted “t” but some things are bigger than that and accepting /respecting this might help prevent more personal suffering down the line

I may get shouted at for this and so be it -

“First don no harm” shouldn’t just apply to those of us who have taken that oath

I am attempting to support you here