I called and asked the receptionist to move up my appointment. My appointment originally scheduled for December 31 had to be rescheduled anyway (like every other appointment I have with him) is now on January 28. I want to do horrible things to that place, and frankly I don't know what to do. I don't think I can hide things from people much longer. I'm at the point where I tried to take my meds and panicked and threw up purposefully. Everyone at group yesterday said I was unwell but I'm in a pickle and I don't really trust anyone especially pharmacists, but I really don't want to go to the ER and them be like "yup, that's spikes, send her to the mental health unit for a few weeks." Because I really do not need inpatient, but I might by my appointment. I don't know what to do. What do I do?