Thank you. i read the articles and are uselful and they really helped.

Problem is, i envy everyone (whether i know them or not) and for everything (about positive things but negatives too).

From whatever point i look at it (who i envy and why) i always lose the comparison and therefore i feel inferior/ashamed and the envy arises…

i would like to be happy LIKE them, forgetting that what makes THEM happy doent necessarily make happy ME. and i cant find what makes me happy or willing to live.