I am here...
Idk, guess I wasn't really meant for deep connections.. or idk do I have that?
I've questioned for many years on this.
It makes sense to me of why not, wasnt truly built for them, it sucks but whatever.
. I tried..

Deep relationships..
I dont think I do, but am told I do.
I dont feel I do, either .. but yet do at moments.
Then i wonder, am I just blind or expecting too much? Or is this a lost in connection with myself..
**maybe I give too little... idk? Not enough, dont feel enough... babble babble babble **

My cat only wants me for food Ok maybe pettings too.

I am ok, ... just probably should get busy with something