To think that I don't even want to die right now because there is still hope. It's just that I fetishize the idea of living life on easy mode and fetishize the idea of living a cushy and spoiled life and dying before things get bad. Or failing all that, I wish that I could be the normiest normie who ever normied. OK fine, I don't like the idea of sacrificing my individuality, failing all that, I wish I were stronger and hard to traumatize. As one could tell, I am always retroactively fixing the past by making hypothetical situations. Is it possible to live for so long and yet not have any traumas that are anything else but mild? - Quora Yeah, I ****ing wonder. Then again, y'all may not be able to relate. After all, to be here, y'all clearly don't have it easy, if you did, you wouldn't be here.