I'm so sorry you're struggling, dshantel. Please don't give up. I know things look and sound really bad right now, but they won't have to stay like this forever. Things can get better. Do you have any friends that can help you raise the kids? That way you won't have to deal with it alone. Can you afford daycare for them? Please don't give up. I know things are hard right now. If it can help a bit... we're here for you. Feel free to share and vent here. I'll listen to what you have to say. I care about you. Please stay safe and take care of yourself. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this