It baffles me....that I have this desire...this urge...to rip open my veins and watch the blood pulse out down my legs....to be mesmerized by it...to emerse myself in this pleasure...to float...to drift so far away from reality that I'm no longer in any pain...

why does something so bad feel so good...?

why does it take me to a place so peaceful and free..?

is it just wrong because it is socially perverse?

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why do so many people who have been abused need to do this???????? what is the connection??????

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