Wisper, this is a very sweet letter, and I thank you for it. I am dealing with the loss of my Sister In Law Connie, who passed today from illness. My guilt is similar to yours. She passed alone. I found out Monday evening, after I had payed my home taxes, that Sunday night She was life flighted unresponsive, and Her Son, and my brother didn't have a way to get to the hospital. I do realize I wasn't responsible to be there, or get them there, but the guilt of knowing she passed alone is hard to bare. Just know, as I have to, we are not responsible for others. My brother should have had transportation for his family. I am very angry at him bc all he ever though of was him self. As with your friend, she was responsible for her actions, not you. There wasn't anything ether of us could have done to change the outcome.