I am once again an absolute prisoner of my worry monster and none of the tricks L and I came up with in the past are working today. Ugh. I am irrationally worried that I typed something I shouldn't have in a response to a member a few days ago and I can't let it go. If I typed what I think I might have, and they complain, I will be fired no ifs ands or buts. I can't imagine for a second that I actually DID what I am afraid I did. But that doesn't change the fact that I am scared that I DID. Irrational fear at it's worst. I need to get a handle on this before the worry starts eating me alive. Damn it. I keep telling myself that no amount of worry is going to change what I did if I did what I am afraid I did. It's done. And if I get fired, h and I will deal with it. I will find another job. It is not the end of the world.


But Goddess please.... please.... that I didn't and I don't.