I know why this is getting the best of me right now it's just cuz I'm working so many hours. I'm starting with that to try to let go of this. It is what it is anyway, it's all part of the adventure that is life, I've survived worse than losing a job, I will be fine whatever happens.

I really really really need to learn to stop letting worrying control me. It serves no purpose at all. Well no good purpose. I've gotten better about it, but right now it's got a firm grip on me.