I feel guilty that my younger sister was abused when we were kids by my mums bf . he tried to abuse me first but i was aware what he was trying to do because I'd been abused my friends dad . he realized he couldn't do it to me .
Because of the abuse i endured before i couldn't sleep at night with bad memories so i tried to block it out and it worked . i blocked out all of the abuse from everyone , forgot about what my mums bf tried to do too . so that meant i was not longer aware and not protecting my sister . when i was a teen i suspected her abused her and j confronted my mum but instead of listening she began to hate me and physically attack me . only as an adult i remembered everything . i was suppose to be the target not my sister . if i didn't make myself forget i could of stopped it . i feel guilty .