I just... can't... sleep.

I have too many things going through my head right now. New ideas of things I want to do or could do, mixed in with some bad anxiety. Overwhelmed by the thought I have to clean up my apartment asap -- but I can't clean now since it's almost 11pm and I don't want to be obnoxious. I shouldn't have been lazy earlier today...

I also can't believe it'll be 2 days until Christmas once the clock strikes midnight. I'm also fearful that this Christmas will be my grandma's last Christmas.